So.....I'm going on this cruise.......yeah...

Someday when I have the money...

//http://www.princess.com/learn/destinations/europe/cruises/emg.jsp

Check that shiznit out! That is like my dream come true, that trip. I promised myself when I was the naive age of, oh, about 19....that I would make it to Europe by the time I turned 25. Welllll...the clock sure is a tickin and I'll be turning 23 when May rolls around. As much as that scares me, I still think I can do it! Hell, in the past two months, I scrounged up $1,200 to get the transmission in my car fixed. I honestly cannot remember the last time I went out, with the intention of buying clothes. Lol. This means that I have been spending NO MONEY and it has been driving me crazy. But I did it, is the point. I did it because my car being driveable was worth it to me. I will and can go through this again too, if it means I can cruise off on a Princess ship with Greece as my first destination! Eeee. I get so excited just thinking about the possibility. My plan is to, within the next few months, go open a CD and start saving as much as i possibly can. This means, sad to say, no more shopping =( not for a long, long......long.....long.....=(...... time.

So, this cruise has 10 ports of call, 10 places I will be visiting-

Venice, Italy

Athens, Greece

Kusadasi, Turkey

Istanbul, Turkey

Mykonos, Greece

Naples/Capri, Italy

Rome, Italy

Florence/Pisa, Italy

Monte Carlo, Monaco

Barcelona, Spain

I read about some of the excursions you can take during they day while you're there, and one of the ones I want to do in Venice, is a Serenaded Gondola Ride. Ba ha ha. I freakin love that!!! Being rowed around in one of the most amazing cities in the WORLD, while being sung to?? Yes, please.

My next task, is finding someone to go with me. Someone who is willing to spend a large amout of money on this trip, like I am. Travis doesn't seem overly interested, when I talk to him about it. I mean, he seems happy for me that this is a goal that I have, but probably not $5,000 dollars kind of excited. I would even go by myself, since you're with people all the time anyway, but I need a picture-taking buddy to come along with me and handle my camera when I want some cool shots taken with me in them. Well, wish me luck...=)

Jake the Snake

Today's post is dedicated to my baby brother, Jake. He just turned 17 on Monday. I ♥ him so much! Word just cannot say. He's 5 years younger than me and over half a foot taller than me. We've been close growing up, pretty much only had eachother to depend on. I remember when we were younger, feeling so protective over him. If anyone would pick on him or anything, I would say, tell me who it is!! I'll show them who to pick on! Ha ha. He's so frickin smart. Sometimes he says things and I'm like, 'Do you sit around and read the encyclopedia all day??' One time I went on tour for High School Orchestra for about 4 days. While we were gone, I missed him so much, I just broke down and cried and cried. I missed him making me laugh like he always does. So, a bunch of my friends and I gathered around, and I called him and told to say something to make me laugh so I could cheer up. Of course, the first thing out of his mouth made me laugh. My brother is one of a kind. That's one of the things I love the most about him. He doesn't care what people think. He just does his thing. We haven't been able to spend much time together lately, since I moved out. Whenever I do see him though, I am reminded of how much I love him. Love you, brother!!! =D The pictures below are from last week when we went to Red Butte Gardens. Enjoy!

I decided I was kidding and I don't really want to grow up....ok???

....sometimes It's stressful growing up and gaining responsibilities. I just found out I wont be able to attend school this semester because of some financial aid technicalities. Instead of being excited to have a break, I find myself very sad! Ha ha. Kinda weird. Maybe I'm sad due to the fact that I already had about 2 1/2 more years untill I would graduate with my Associate's Degree. Now I have to wait 3 years!!! It makes me laugh and want to cry, at the same time. Anywho, I am also having car troubles. My third gear is going out in my Celica, after I spent $2,600 not even a year ago, to have the entire transmission replaced. Grrrr. There's a lot more that I could complain about, but I wont. =D It's a good day and I'm all smiles and sunshine from here on out. It really is a great day! I wish I could go play in the sun!

HYPOGLYCEMIA HELL

Grrrr. I'm tired all the time. And I mean ALL the time. No matter what I do sleep wise, I'm a walking zombie. I've tried getting 9 hours of sleep/night (this doesn't allow for much of a life, when I'm sleeping NINE hours or more every night). I've tried only getting around 7 hours of sleep/night. It just seems like, no matter what i do, I cant get just enough sleep so that I'm not completely exhausted all day long. Also, after I eat certain foods, I feel like I'm seconds away from passing out. So I went and had blood work done and my doc notified me that he feels I am Hypoglycemic. The cure, of course, will be to 'Follow a strict set of diet guidlines, get enough sleep, and exercise 5 days a week.' Pshhh. Can't you just give me a magic pill (that's non-addicting of course??) that will magically fix all my problems? Darn it. Well, I have some things to say about this. It is VERY hard for me to resist the urge to eat sweets. I'm only being honest! I know this post is going to make me sound like a fat american who's well on her way to Diabetes, but this is my place to complain if I wanna complain!! mmk? =D So, second on my list of Fat American Complaints is....Exercise? Blah. I LOVE exercising when I have the time and energy, don't get me wrong. But when the hell do I have BOTH the time and the energy?? Ha ha. Basically once every 2 weeks, if I'm being honest here. I feel so amazing after a good run or a game of tennis, but just getting to the tennis court or the gym, is more than half the battle. I know that once I start working out more, that I'll magically have more ambition to do it regularly, because of how good it makes you feel. I'm just sitting here thinking about how the last thing I want to do tonight after driving 45 minutes to get to work, working for 8 hours, and then trying to force-feed my brain College Algebra for 2.5 hours, is put on my running shoes and head to the gym. I just wanna go home! Ha ha. So, if anyone has motivational words for me to helop get my ass to the gym, please let me know!

Second issue at hand-
Here's a list of the things I should not have. It's such a sad list full of my favorite things!
♥ sugars
♥ refined flour
♥ white rice
♥ processed proteins (lunchmeats, sausages, bacon, hot dogs - anything with additives or preservatives) mmmm baaaacon gargle gargle gargle
♥ processed cheese
♥ anything with caffeine in it (including chocolate)
♥ soft drinks (carbonated drinks, including diet sodas)
♥ alcohol

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I tell you what, the list above was just about everything I was planning on eating in powell this weekend. And lots of alcohol. Boo who. This house is a fucking prison! Ha ha. I'm just so sad, because, normally, I would take this as 'guidelines' rather than 'rules' but if I dont shape up, this could lead to diabetes! And diabetes=extra expenses, health problems, and annoyance. Sho, I think I'll take the advice from the stupid book. Anywho, on a positive note, most likely these changes that I will be making, will make me feel better! And to that, I say HELLS YEAH.